you, friend.

i think i just want to take this time to post this,

a sermon by Tim Keller on, FRIENDSHIP.
i am so so blessed by this and truly grateful that somebody talks this out.

love you with all of my hearts,

you know who you are :')

once upon a day

i remember those days,
when sky gets cloudy,
when our sights get blurry.


we have ran too far,
and it seems to late to find a way back.
there was no one,
it was very quiet and dark.
we scared to death not knowing what to do.

so once again we bow down on our knees,
set our heart back to the Mighty one,and saying that we surrender all.

He came down,
hug us and kiss us with love, oh so warm.
in that very moment, 
we know, 
everything is going to be alright.

God is faithful,
even in many times we aren't

come back to Him today,
come back to Him now.
do not give up,
as He is still not giving up on you, on us.

hold your faith dearly,
hold the thing that can never be taken away from you.

for we are His,
and He is ours,
forever,
for eternity.

x

lalala

apparently still there's this part of me wanting to be a disney princess kekekek



ah, who doesn't? :p

a new day

this is when 2014 starts.

not literally when the clock ticks 00:01 on the first day of the year, nor when the sounds of fireworks and cheering crowds blend into one. we went to the windy damp beach on the first day of the year, and it felt the same. such an odd day of the year with some lovely cheery friends. world war z the next day and bit more wandering around and eating some sweets at stephen's.

home time.

im feeling rather grateful to be home this time. i started to enjoy the crazy crowds and eager to observe how people build their life here. it is not bad at all, it is just different. and in all of sudden i realised how silly and confused i have been in the past six months -- maybe i should call it as a grace period.

i listed down my work to-do-lists yesterday, seems many. but i will still have another lists to do beyond that.

definitely.

this word caught my mind these days. there this crazy hope started to spring again that yes, God will definitely fulfil His promises and bring them into completion. He is definitely the Almighty one, the only Savior, the King of all. i guess in this stage of life, i know i tend to be a cynic in many cases. please note that this is not intentional, i actually don't want to. i am humbled though to be reminded once again that i control nothing in my life, it is somebody else's job and i do not need to worry because of that.

so, without adding more mushy words. i just want to say lets start this year knowing that God is in control and He is with you definitely in any season. He is good and faithful.

and for today i thank You.

(:

xx

helo! these days are those days where i just throw myself to bed in seconds or times when i found myself constantly thinking over the night that drives me crazy. weeks pass quickly and i have been doing lots of things. but somehow, i am a bit concerned that i may miss something far more important than these.

i have been trying to figure out what i might have missed during this time, or maybe not now, but i am afraid i would not realise it til it's gone, til it's too late. i have been complaining less with how things work surrounds me. i started to figure out this 'mastery' everyone has here. i learnt what to mention what is not to mention to others simply just because they won't have time for my rambling, except to some other people i might have slipped on too much words - sorry guys.

one thing keeps lingering still in my mind, of what pop told me casually in one dinner occasion. he actually referred to one of the Bible verse, paraphrased, like this: "God will not give you challenges / temptations harder than what you can take; if He gave you the hard one, He will definitely provide you a way out". i came out to such an amazement of how he speaks such thing cause he is no believer and he lifted up my heart instantly just by saying that. i came out to think, God, i know you are still at work in my family!

we went home and i rushed to my room to look for that verse once again in the Bible. i knew i heard it so many times and remembered it by heart, but it struck me hard that night.

it was from 1 Cor 10:13

"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it".


God is faithful.

how i forgot that too easily. (plus i cried a little inside cause how pop misses this part :*< )
i have been blaming many other things in response to my perception of my mundane and stagnant life, and i always failed to see how He remains faithful in any circumstances of my life. and moreover, He has the power to turn my life around!

i don't know try to be over-melancholic when talking about God. i can't help it - He touches the deepest of my heart and how can i supposed to react to that? it gets me sentimental.

a little note tho, faith is not merely about feelings - not something that gets you cry or jumps out for joy every single time. it is when you are fully convicted in yourself and your character and attitude changed to be Christ-like's.

i do not know what i might have missed out in the past times. i have lost and i have gained. and i could have lost many great things of this world, many. what i am sure of though, i do not want to miss out His presence in my life. those little things He speaks to me through people, through problems, through blessings, through hard times, through good times - and knowing He is faithful always in my life.

i am not giving up yet, Daddy.

dan aku tau nanti suatu hari.

(:

where does wisdom come from?

“We all know how silver seams the rocks,

    we’ve seen the stuff from which gold is refined,

We’re aware of how iron is dug out of the ground

    and copper is smelted from rock.

Miners penetrate the earth’s darkness,

    searching the roots of the mountains for ore,

    digging away in the suffocating darkness.

Far from civilization, far from the traffic,

    they cut a shaft,

    and are lowered into it by ropes.

Earth’s surface is a field for grain,

    but its depths are a forge

Firing sapphires from stones

    and chiseling gold from rocks.

Vultures are blind to its riches,

    hawks never lay eyes on it.

Wild animals are oblivious to it,

    lions don’t know it’s there.

Miners hammer away at the rock,

    they uproot the mountains.

They tunnel through the rock

    and find all kinds of beautiful gems.

They discover the origins of rivers,

    and bring earth’s secrets to light.

“But where, oh where, will they find Wisdom?

    Where does Insight hide?
Mortals don’t have a clue,
    haven’t the slightest idea where to look.
Earth’s depths say, ‘It’s not here’;
    ocean deeps echo, ‘Never heard of it.’
It can’t be bought with the finest gold;
    no amount of silver can get it.
Even famous Ophir gold can’t buy it,
    not even diamonds and sapphires.
Neither gold nor emeralds are comparable;
    extravagant jewelry can’t touch it.
Pearl necklaces and ruby bracelets—why bother?
    None of this is even a down payment on Wisdom!
Pile gold and African diamonds as high as you will,
    they can’t hold a candle to Wisdom.

“So where does Wisdom come from?
    And where does Insight live?
It can’t be found by looking, no matter
    how deep you dig, no matter how high you fly.
If you search through the graveyard and question the dead,
    they say, ‘We’ve only heard rumors of it.’

“God alone knows the way to Wisdom,
    he knows the exact place to find it.

He knows where everything is on earth,
    he sees everything under heaven.
After he commanded the winds to blow
    and measured out the waters,
Arranged for the rain
    and set off explosions of thunder and lightning,
He focused on Wisdom,
    made sure it was all set and tested and ready.
Then he addressed the human race: ‘Here it is!
    Fear-of-the-Lord—that’s Wisdom,
    and Insight means shunning evil.’”

-- JOB 28