shut it down

hello friend.

it is june already. gahh, time really waits for no one. i have also been keeping myself busy these days until i finally fell sick once again, yayy to rest time and long sleep hours! been missing my baby daschund who passed away on april - i was that close on writing a whole entry about my grief of him on april, but then i thought i would be too much - not that i love him less anyway.

so, yeah. everything seems quieter lately.

not the world though, it is getting busier. meetings, catching ups, work, holidays, weddings, parties, events, birthdays have become our daily agendas without us realising we have no time for ourselves, for God.

see, the problem we are facing today is not how to busy but how to be quiet. how do we find the time for ourselves, me time, they call it, also for us to spend with our closest ones. time we set up for God, to talk to Him, to read His words, to pray. we may be involved in church activities, ministries, events, but hey, without us having a direct personal relationship with Himself, would that be sad? we then would be easily dragged down and lost our purpose to do so in the first place.

rather than trusting in His wisdom, we tend to find excuses try to talk Him out of things we do outside what He is trusting us to do. rather than listening to His guidance, we keep trying to reason our decision with our potato-sized brain. rather than letting Him change our life, we push for what has become our selfish ambition without His permission. we never let Him speak to us because..

we can't shut up.

this is the irony of modern day people. things that made to be our helper, has become our gods. we are slave to them. we become so attached to it and they keep us busy all day long. we never switch off so we never rest. we never rest so we become weary. our soul dry up.

one example, i had a tough lesson on. i broke my dearly-loved macbook pro that i was proud of, it was all soaked in water overnight, and it was on. i bought it with my own money, best specs, best price. little too late then i realised i loved it a bit too much.

it got me thinking, why are we so much controlled by this thing?
don't we realise that we have lost so much time because of this?

i am not that crazy telling myself and us to lock ourself in a room, doing things the conventional way and live our lives like they did in years back. but, i think we deserve some time off from all of those things.

so does God, He deserve wayyy much of our time.

He is the one looking after you 24/7 you know (: