'im impossible to forget but im hard to remember'

teach me not to give up on You,

as You never give up on me.

teach me not to give in to myself,

as i want to pursue You even more.

Thank You, Daddy.

Really really thank You for everything.

(:

2012

"cause I want you to be JOYFUL in Me"


(: (: (:

yes.

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

--

Habakkuk 3:17-18

id like to call it beauty :'')

Will you not revive us once more?
Then your people will rejoice in you!
O Lord, show us Your loyal love!
Bestow on us Your deliverance!

I will listen to what God the Lord says.
For He will make peace with his people, His faithful followers.
Yet they must not return to their foolish ways.

Certainly His loyal followers will soon experience His deliverance;
then His splendor will again appear in our land.

Loyal love and faithfulness meet;
deliverance and peace greet each other with a kiss.
Faithfulness grows from the ground,
and deliverance looks down from the sky.

Yes, the Lord will bestow His good blessings,
and our land will yield its crops.
Deliverance goes before Him,
and prepares a pathway for Him.
** Psalm 85:6-13

what would it take to revive our land, Lord? what would it take to have Your splendor shine upon us? we all need deliverance! deliverance comes from the Lord only. only Him can grant us deliverance.

what would be our part, Lord? we have to be faithful. each and everyone of us who has known Christ, we should not go back to our own foolish way! this is really critical!

nothing compares with the love of our Lord Jesus Christ. when God's loyal love and faithfulness meet, surely deliverance will be granted for us, peace will be with us. as Jesus has come to the world, perform the complete faithfulness, went to the cross for love sake. all of our debts have been paid, we received deliverance from our sin.

God will grant us His great blessing. when people are freed, surely the land they live will bear its fruits. but again, there has to be deliverance!!

revive us, Lord.
revive us.

while now

i do wonder if i have truly changed. i dont like things i used to like anymore, i dont mind doing something i used to dislike before. while i know im still the same person.

ive been so occupied with things lately, too many. yet i still do feel calm and content. im tired and whined once in a while, but thats it, no more further complaining. i do know God is with me every step of the way, i just need to put my trust in Him.

He promised me once, years ago. this one specific thing i came across randomly from browsing the net *yes, He is online too, you know :p* which may not make sense to anyone else except me. a very personal, direct message i will never forget. as things have fallen apart, this promise helped me to keep going, to keep praying, to keep hoping. while i can also feel that the world is trying to pull me back down, trying to slip around my way, setting his little delusive traps on my path. man, im not going back.

i have decided to follow Jesus

.

it wont be easy. it wont. i would still fall here and there, sin. but there s this little voice keep telling me e-ve-ry time i would do something bad, that i cant just ignore. and im sure its not my conscience cause she's bit psychotic at times, i dont trust her hundred percent. which then led me to a little conclusion, that it must be You, God (:

im embracing life now. sweet and bitter taste of it. i cease them all.


cause one more thing, i know im still not done with;
the lesson of love.

x

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there are only two answers, if you feel you dont fit in somewhere;

you are not meant to be there.
//
you have to change.