this is one of the stupid things we always do.

im stressed. no, im exhausted.
i found this abit scary, finding myself being really blur, complaints and whining every 5 mins.
stop it ellen. stop.

you are doing the exact thing that light bulb doing.

so, here i am now.
i repent myself from my awful way of thinking.
i am sorry God :(
i shall believe Your grace is MORE than enough for me that You sustain my life, every single second. i choose not to stress abt this anymore.
HORRAY (:

meh

its not over yet.
yes, after having sleepless nights for a week, i found out today that studio isnt over yet. model's need to be redone and there will be a big presentation in the next 2 weeks. scared? yess, absolutely. everyone was sigh-ing all the time during the practice presentation + peer assessment. in could feel the tension in the room and we act like zombies.

freaking out? hmm not really. it is useless and going to take much of my time.


this is life eh? it is not always easy. u might say im exaggerating what i face in uni. but this is the truth. we re design students dont sleep much. caffeine is our friends and computer is our lovers.

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but hey, theres such thing called hope, right? (:

gila

i think im going crazy. after hating the non-existence of my 3d model in these past days *oh, past hours actually* i came up with new obsession to improve it. arghh. obsession eh? whats wrong with meeee.. im just going to add up more extra works for myself. aiming for HD? not really, i dont really care for the marks. i just want to do my best. its more like a personal satisfaction sort of thing. but please ellen, please, stop working that hard okay? promise. promise.

remember, life isnt only abt uni!!

nyeh

i tried to be a superhero for myself.
i failed.


i need God.

miaw

Tuhan ellen capek............. :''(



updated 17/05/09
Tuhan: "iya ellen, Aku tahu..."
ellen: "makasih Tuhan!" (:

photos by Sandy Edwards

im looking forward to

make some cute brooches with mayu later on holiday! yayy! :3


now, go and do your work.

makanya toh len..

after all of these tiring weeks........


i know what my problem is: my ego!

now im gonna put my head lower than before, to be humble, and more humble before You, God. You are my shield, my strength, my portion, deliverer (:

another little things

sun and coffee.