syellalala

we re all kucel and tired but we re up for photo session nyahahah~

wednesday

this is why i need girlfriends. they make my dayy! (:

when the world doesnt only revolve around you

thats why we should stop whining, appreciate and move on.
i know that He is control (:


keep praying love!

the dudes

the men of the week:
mike & joel.


and the boys who have accompanied my sunday: stephen & stanley.
thank u guys! (:

oyah, LOVE thissssss:

mixtape

ada yg bisa nemuin cowo kayak gini buat gue gaaaa??? :D

kiddoo

im just a kid.


aaaa saya mau maen2 saya ngga mau bikin peer!!!

1 peter 5:10

but the God of all grace, who hath called us unto His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.

(:

bed time

ugh. was planning to sleep but i cudnt resist playing ard with these lights :x
i do have too much imaginary thoughts in mind,
yet,

im quite a realistic person.

finding neverland

wonder where mine is gonna be.


must be somewhere pretty :p

darjeeling tea

few hours of nothing-to-do-ness yay (:

give thanks

one of the reasons why i keep surviving here (:

bukan ellen

i always said that, yes we do have choices.
and for me, i choose not to do this and that.

then i feel good.
is that all, ellen?
so you re not-that-bad person?


i thank God for the reminder today. every little good things ive done and about to do -- isnt actually from me. it is the Holy Spirit that speaks to my heart, tells me to do so. i was so over-whelmed when He opened up this whole new thing to me. i thought, i wasnt a bad person at all, i am good because i am still going to the church, doing ministry there and also in fa. but, doesnt it mean that i measure my goodness based on my work??? this is so wrong.

God loved me first. there is nothing i can do to love Him back as much as He does to me. thats why it is called grace. we dont deserve it yet we get it for free because God loves us so much. im looking at myself and i began to realise that i will never be perfect. my goodness isnt good enough :x

thus, i really really grateful to know that it is not me who's doing good in my life, yet it is God Himself working on greater things to be happened in me! i have no idea to explain any of these clearer. but it is such a joy to know that He lives in me who is no one and loves me so much that He gave me the best thing i could ever receive in life- the salvation. My Lord, My Savior Jesus Christ (:

dont lose ur muchness

i believe each one of us ever faced a crossroads. there s time when you have to push yourself to be slightly mature than before and make a quite a big decision for yourself. and trust me, it s not gonna be easy.

im in the crossroads too. i almost finish my uni and soon, i have to face a new stage of life. i have to work as a professional? or i could just start a new business, probably? scared? YES of course. i know i have to keep my self firm and make sure that both of my feet are still touching the ground. and in these times i know im all by myself.

sometimes when we look our surroundings, we see how green others grass is. and we thought, what a wonderful life they have (compare to mine). but, but, its theirs, not ours. and it doesnt matter how hard they ve been working on their life, or maybe they re just super blessed; its theirs. full stop.

one thing i always do to remind myself. this is my life, it ll be different to others. mine wont be the same as yours, and not even like mum's or dad's. at this point, i am grateful and thankful enough to say that i have God who s taking care of my life. As it s mentioned in Psalm 91:
² I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

And read this sweet promises our God has given to us:

¹⁴ "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

¹⁵ He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

¹⁶ With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

thus, dont be discouraged; simply put everything under His cross and trust Him fully. He is with me, and so He is with you too. And i think the key to this life is 'to be much muchier in God' (:

have a blessed day love
xx