Thursday, May 14, 2020

Okay. I just have to right.

At least this is for my future self's sake.

Never in my lifetime I would imagined that there would be a time like this. A pandemic that affects the entire world! (well maybe not those in the Sentinels), but yea, most of us really.

It started with a fear. Like the fear of the unknown, as if we were part of the plots in sci-fi movie. Everyone was freaking out at the same time, I too, found myself checking how many people got infected every day, how many people died that day. Those was for like what, 2-3 solid weeks?! Was I nuts? Maybe I was. I found it hard to sleep at night, I pushed myself to watch movies / docos anything really to take me away from thinking about the pandemic for a bit. And that frustrated me too.

I went frantic with cooking, sewing, thinking about those DIY things I could possibly do during quarantine time. Yet on the back of my head, I was stressing out about how to pay the bills and salary for work. Messy. And messy.

As the world goes quiet, we are then in a war inside ourselves. And it is mental. It is spiritual. It's all over until your whole body aches cause you sleep too late and too much.

But then, this came right in the other day.

Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; 
all your waves and breakers have swept over me.

By day the LORD directs his love, 
at night his song is with me-- a prayer to the God of my life.

Why do I care so much for things that I can't control?
The waves and the hustle in life  are always going to be there, call it pandemic, call it something else. It would still be able to eat us up and drag us down. But it's just we are all in the same page now.

But His love doesn't stop there, even with winds, and the crazy storm we are in; even Himself is mightier than any of those. God is MIGHTY. And I am just so assured with that.

The question is, shall we call on Him now?
Shall we run to Him?

When we call upon His name, when we search Him with all of our hearts, even the storm can't stop Him to meet us. He will meet us where we are.

He will come.
He will direct.

He will be with us.
Because He is the God of our life.