meri krismas, ninjas!

decided to write again.

skimmed through old notes, i saw the rain, i saw the rainbow. the wheel was and is still at work. continuosly, in may, in june. everytime. things were let go, things are now free. but some are still tangled around her. not so much a beauty, but a chance to grow. hidden smile and secrets, i was hoping to see thru that golden binoculars. shall i sail to the north or to the west? to the garden of the sun. to stand for the battles with the monkeys. when You told me so, Father. when You told me so. my fingers arent that many, eyes are not that sharp, thus im in a need of that voice, saying You love me always.

straighten me, o Lord!

"All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirits".
Proverbs 16:2 

it is so true. we, fallen men, will always try to justify our doing. so many times, we said, "it's all for the Lord's sake", "He confirms my decision, im on His path" is that truly our faith or we just try to escape ourselves from feeling guilty?

 i ask myself so many times. i always feel reluctant to say, "yea yea, God told me so"
 cause i know my heart is truly wicked. subtle change of perspective can be used to manipulate the way we, or others, see things. but we dont lie to our hearts.

as by the grace of God, by the Holy Spirit He has given for everyone of us, we should know, and we do know when we try to hide things away from Him. and what for? He knows! we do know when we prompt to sin yet we still do it anyway. cause we are too afraid to not getting it. cause we have been wanting it so badly. cause we lust it.

oh dear, Lord, purify us, cleanse us from our wicked way!

break us, do whatever it takes to bring us in Your righteousness.
have mercy on us, Lord! strengthen us and take us by Your right hand!
show us YOUR path not ours, lead us and guide us to fulfill YOUR purpose!

 "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me".