and again

cause I have been found myself again and again in a place of grace.

serenity. that is. a full confidence in the power and sovereignty of the Lord Jesus Christ that has sustained my life until today. faith that believes in His good plans for me and He will continually transforming my character to be more and more like Him.

everything that is good comes from the Lord. 

thank Him for what He has done yesterday.

praise Him for what He is doing today.

trust Him for what He will do tomorrow.

good morning!

it is almost october and it has been two months since i touched back on this blog.

i could not really remember what have i been doing lately, most things were work-related, sleep-related and studio renovation-related. i know, they don't seem very exciting.

however, now i want to put aside some time just to write this, before i forgot about it. because i know someday i (and maybe you too) would be blessed by this (:

invest your time on people.

it struck me one day that week. i was just casually talking to one of my previous cell group member via phone, a dear friend of mine - despite the age gap we have :p it is always fascinating to talk to her.  it was almost 11 at night, we both were still working in our laptops (overtime as always) and then i told her, here listen to this song, very sad and 'menyayat hati'! then she said, 'no, why would you?' and then she gave a me a link of 'jangan lelah' song. it was weird, for a split of second i my heart began to jump out in joy! for me, it was not only about the song that she gave me, but her decision to fill her heart with praises to God even in the middle of something that may not be pleasant (aka working late). and not only that, my brain just flash backed to the first time i met her and knowing her as a person. those awkward coffee times i had to do to follow her up and those crazy times where she kept making me to listen to indonesian's ballads i don't really like -- i realised that i have invested a lot of my time for her in these past years. and now we are apart and i can truly see how her faith has grown steadily in Christ. it is about the time, right? time we give to people, matters. time we invests on people to share how GOOD God is in our lives, matters. time we give to be there for them, when they needed us, matters. it is only when we involve God in our relationship with others, we can truly see the value of time.

same with our relationship with God, the more we invest our time with Him, the more we would see His beauty, experience His love and trust Him with all our heart.

i know its a daily lesson for me, still. it is still a struggle for me - life is always busy. and it will always be. then it really comes to our personal decision, to make time for God, to invest our time with Him so that when we do also, invest our time in people, we can be an impact for their life. we can be the salt and the light for the world.

because without Him, we are just dusts. without Him, life would have no meaning.

be a blessing wherever you are placed. 

God is not done with you and His promises are true.

His love for you, never fails.

xx

oh, dear.

so why don't we go somewhere only we know?

shut it down

hello friend.

it is june already. gahh, time really waits for no one. i have also been keeping myself busy these days until i finally fell sick once again, yayy to rest time and long sleep hours! been missing my baby daschund who passed away on april - i was that close on writing a whole entry about my grief of him on april, but then i thought i would be too much - not that i love him less anyway.

so, yeah. everything seems quieter lately.

not the world though, it is getting busier. meetings, catching ups, work, holidays, weddings, parties, events, birthdays have become our daily agendas without us realising we have no time for ourselves, for God.

see, the problem we are facing today is not how to busy but how to be quiet. how do we find the time for ourselves, me time, they call it, also for us to spend with our closest ones. time we set up for God, to talk to Him, to read His words, to pray. we may be involved in church activities, ministries, events, but hey, without us having a direct personal relationship with Himself, would that be sad? we then would be easily dragged down and lost our purpose to do so in the first place.

rather than trusting in His wisdom, we tend to find excuses try to talk Him out of things we do outside what He is trusting us to do. rather than listening to His guidance, we keep trying to reason our decision with our potato-sized brain. rather than letting Him change our life, we push for what has become our selfish ambition without His permission. we never let Him speak to us because..

we can't shut up.

this is the irony of modern day people. things that made to be our helper, has become our gods. we are slave to them. we become so attached to it and they keep us busy all day long. we never switch off so we never rest. we never rest so we become weary. our soul dry up.

one example, i had a tough lesson on. i broke my dearly-loved macbook pro that i was proud of, it was all soaked in water overnight, and it was on. i bought it with my own money, best specs, best price. little too late then i realised i loved it a bit too much.

it got me thinking, why are we so much controlled by this thing?
don't we realise that we have lost so much time because of this?

i am not that crazy telling myself and us to lock ourself in a room, doing things the conventional way and live our lives like they did in years back. but, i think we deserve some time off from all of those things.

so does God, He deserve wayyy much of our time.

He is the one looking after you 24/7 you know (:

rambles on

i remember the words.

all of those verses i have been heard, they keep speaking to me in different ways. there was once, one good friend of mine, and also a mentor, told me that there is richness in God's word. in many times, God speaks to us through the Bible, as a form of encouragement, comfort, rebuking, command, and so on. Holy Spirit helps opening up our mind and heart towards new things -- a true great character of God. we read, we sing, we pray to God whom we know - and how do we know Him if its not from His words?

i came to realisation once again in how important is reading Bible. things are usually hectic here. the dynamic of life is crazy, and it makes it hard for us to sit down, clear up our mind and just soak into His words and let the Holy Spirit speak to us. i do miss those tuesday prayer nights, that once was a very hard thing for me to do, to sit down and pray, not sleep! yes i did sleep a lot in prayer meetings, it felt peaceful too :p

i always feel lost in words every time i have to explain about my new life here. it did take me at least half a year of confusing life for me before i truly accept the fact that i have to adapt for settling in. pardon my awkward and weird acts (plus being difficult many times!) these past few months if you ever encountered with me. i knew i was not myself, it was confusing for me too.

but hey, the Lord is gracious! i knew if its not because of Him i would keep being weird, well i might still be but in a good way this time (: He teaches me to be humble a lot of times, to be patient and loving, to be warm and not cold, to be open and responsive, to be strong yet dependant to Him, to be enduring in hard times, to find that smile at the end of the day - he teaches me to enjoy life in Christ. shouldn't life as a Christian be a joyful one? despite the crazy things and hard times, i know He's always around to hug me and be with me. i am a happy girl, for once in these past few years :D

and the foundation of all these lay on the salvation He has graciously given to me, as i found these verses peter wrote so beautifully;

for you have been born again, not if the perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. 

for, 

all people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; 
the grass withers and the flowers fall,
but the word of the Lord endures forever.

thank you for being soooo great, Daddy! xx

you, friend.

i think i just want to take this time to post this,

a sermon by Tim Keller on, FRIENDSHIP.
i am so so blessed by this and truly grateful that somebody talks this out.

love you with all of my hearts,

you know who you are :')

once upon a day

i remember those days,
when sky gets cloudy,
when our sights get blurry.


we have ran too far,
and it seems to late to find a way back.
there was no one,
it was very quiet and dark.
we scared to death not knowing what to do.

so once again we bow down on our knees,
set our heart back to the Mighty one,and saying that we surrender all.

He came down,
hug us and kiss us with love, oh so warm.
in that very moment, 
we know, 
everything is going to be alright.

God is faithful,
even in many times we aren't

come back to Him today,
come back to Him now.
do not give up,
as He is still not giving up on you, on us.

hold your faith dearly,
hold the thing that can never be taken away from you.

for we are His,
and He is ours,
forever,
for eternity.

x

lalala

apparently still there's this part of me wanting to be a disney princess kekekek



ah, who doesn't? :p

a new day

this is when 2014 starts.

not literally when the clock ticks 00:01 on the first day of the year, nor when the sounds of fireworks and cheering crowds blend into one. we went to the windy damp beach on the first day of the year, and it felt the same. such an odd day of the year with some lovely cheery friends. world war z the next day and bit more wandering around and eating some sweets at stephen's.

home time.

im feeling rather grateful to be home this time. i started to enjoy the crazy crowds and eager to observe how people build their life here. it is not bad at all, it is just different. and in all of sudden i realised how silly and confused i have been in the past six months -- maybe i should call it as a grace period.

i listed down my work to-do-lists yesterday, seems many. but i will still have another lists to do beyond that.

definitely.

this word caught my mind these days. there this crazy hope started to spring again that yes, God will definitely fulfil His promises and bring them into completion. He is definitely the Almighty one, the only Savior, the King of all. i guess in this stage of life, i know i tend to be a cynic in many cases. please note that this is not intentional, i actually don't want to. i am humbled though to be reminded once again that i control nothing in my life, it is somebody else's job and i do not need to worry because of that.

so, without adding more mushy words. i just want to say lets start this year knowing that God is in control and He is with you definitely in any season. He is good and faithful.

and for today i thank You.

(: