gw rencana susun portfolio. soon.
uni tinggal 3 semester lagi dan gw gak tau mesti ngapaen sehabis itu.. sekolah lagi? mungkin nggak dulu, pengen kerja.... apa mending kawin, beli mesin jait trus jadi ibu rumah tangga aja? hahahaha.. jaitin baju lucu2 buat anak terus ngajarin dia menggambar dan mewarna. tapi cita2 gua kan jadi industrial designer?
ga lah len, mending kerjain method dulu, studio sama projection okaaaaay! :3
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
renungan kecil
what was the biggest problem uve ever faced when u were in middle school?
for me, it was my 'secret boyfriend' whom last for only a week because i was to afraid that my dad would know us. i was 13.
few years later in high school, i was afraid of failing my classes since i was so dumb in maths and chem and i need to get at least 75 to be able to go to the next class. i remember sitting on the floor in front of my class with one of my mate, we both were depressed, waiting for our mums getting our results that morning. then he told me, worse come to worse, he might end up being in the same class with his girlfriend who was in the lower grade, what a big problem we were facinggg! 0_0 well, we made it thru. i was 16.
after i graduated from highschool, my dad offered me if i wanted to go melbourne for uni with my sister. i said, id love to. the challenges were the ielts test and my 'another-secret-boyfriend' whom i was going to leave. it was almost a year of relationship, then we broke up. i was 18.
speak english or die, my sister said. i tried my best pushing myself hard to adapt my tounge speaking in this *i wudnt say bogan style* australian accent english, cause i want to survive here. more obstacles and challenges came after. and you realised that things are getting serious while ure getting older *because you know more things*. note: im not saying here that my life is boring, dark and very gloomy down here. haha.
bad things may happen to you and drive you crazy. you can put that fake smile in your face and tell everyone that you re alright. its fine. but the most important matter is how you manage yourself to go through it *and learn from it (:
as it says in the book of ecclesiastes..
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
but when you sad, dont be too sad :D
for me, it was my 'secret boyfriend' whom last for only a week because i was to afraid that my dad would know us. i was 13.
few years later in high school, i was afraid of failing my classes since i was so dumb in maths and chem and i need to get at least 75 to be able to go to the next class. i remember sitting on the floor in front of my class with one of my mate, we both were depressed, waiting for our mums getting our results that morning. then he told me, worse come to worse, he might end up being in the same class with his girlfriend who was in the lower grade, what a big problem we were facinggg! 0_0 well, we made it thru. i was 16.
after i graduated from highschool, my dad offered me if i wanted to go melbourne for uni with my sister. i said, id love to. the challenges were the ielts test and my 'another-secret-boyfriend' whom i was going to leave. it was almost a year of relationship, then we broke up. i was 18.
speak english or die, my sister said. i tried my best pushing myself hard to adapt my tounge speaking in this *i wudnt say bogan style* australian accent english, cause i want to survive here. more obstacles and challenges came after. and you realised that things are getting serious while ure getting older *because you know more things*. note: im not saying here that my life is boring, dark and very gloomy down here. haha.
bad things may happen to you and drive you crazy. you can put that fake smile in your face and tell everyone that you re alright. its fine. but the most important matter is how you manage yourself to go through it *and learn from it (:
as it says in the book of ecclesiastes..
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
Ecc 3: 1-14
but when you sad, dont be too sad :D
Friday, July 10, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
yayyy!
i am speechless.
God is great beyond everything! (:
ya ya i keep my promise to finish this entry. it started few weeks ago. no, actually, a month ago. uni was extremely hectic and i was longing for a holiday with my plan: doing whatever i want to do. but, as usual, things didnt go with my expectation. i finished uni at 10th of june, and guess when did my holiday start? 1st of july. i promised my part-time-job boss to work full-time for a week since she was going to singapore for holiday. unfortunately, yes very unfortunate to hear that my boss' daughter diagnosed with swine flu when they arrived there. and what else could be happened except weeks of quarantine in hospital and home *in singapore*. so, i passed my days waking up at 5.30am when the sun hasnt come yet and my sister is still asleep. well, i finished at 2 tho, which is not too bad, i thought. until by body said that it couldnt cope with the workload anymore. i fell sick. i woke up with 'encok' at my birth-day, a sign of ageing maybe *sigh*. and i took 2 more days off cause i was still sick.
thank God, i could finally go to wintercamp on wednesday eventho i had to go home earlier from work on tuesday since i was still coughing and sneezing like crazy *not as crazy as people who lined up for tattslotto that day tho :p* ya, so i went, with no expectation. i prayed to God before i got into the bus "Tuhann, ellen jangan mabok yaa.. nanti tambah sakit.." and He heard that silly prayer of mine (:
maybe my body was too weak, i admitted that i fell asleep for few minutes in some sessions *proven by my ugly handwriting on the booklet :p* but, each sessions opened up my mind and gave me a new perspective to see this life. and the presence God Himself was really there. i talked to Him "Tuhan, ellen nggak mau sia2 dateng k sini, udah sakit pula, Tuhan yang kuatin yaa" it wasnt about how much tears i shed and the manifestation i experienced but it was all about how i feel God and i believe Him wholeheartedly that He is real. He lifted up all my burden, all of those little wanderings i kept myself. He showed me that He cares (:
and more than that, He filled my heart with love and joy! Lord, if its not from You, how can i love and care others? i might find people are dissapointing, and they never seem to understand me, but hey ellen, would you let those problems taking the joy of the Lord away from your heart?
the wintercamp is over, i got back to the reality living in melbourne cbd as i got the signal back to my mobile. reality came in. and yes, things do go wrong. but we believe that our God have a beautiful plan for our life eh?
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" - Jeremiah 29:11
You've walked with me thru the mountains,
and You were also there when i was in the valleys.
i want to keep You with me forever (:
God is great beyond everything! (:
ya ya i keep my promise to finish this entry. it started few weeks ago. no, actually, a month ago. uni was extremely hectic and i was longing for a holiday with my plan: doing whatever i want to do. but, as usual, things didnt go with my expectation. i finished uni at 10th of june, and guess when did my holiday start? 1st of july. i promised my part-time-job boss to work full-time for a week since she was going to singapore for holiday. unfortunately, yes very unfortunate to hear that my boss' daughter diagnosed with swine flu when they arrived there. and what else could be happened except weeks of quarantine in hospital and home *in singapore*. so, i passed my days waking up at 5.30am when the sun hasnt come yet and my sister is still asleep. well, i finished at 2 tho, which is not too bad, i thought. until by body said that it couldnt cope with the workload anymore. i fell sick. i woke up with 'encok' at my birth-day, a sign of ageing maybe *sigh*. and i took 2 more days off cause i was still sick.
thank God, i could finally go to wintercamp on wednesday eventho i had to go home earlier from work on tuesday since i was still coughing and sneezing like crazy *not as crazy as people who lined up for tattslotto that day tho :p* ya, so i went, with no expectation. i prayed to God before i got into the bus "Tuhann, ellen jangan mabok yaa.. nanti tambah sakit.." and He heard that silly prayer of mine (:
maybe my body was too weak, i admitted that i fell asleep for few minutes in some sessions *proven by my ugly handwriting on the booklet :p* but, each sessions opened up my mind and gave me a new perspective to see this life. and the presence God Himself was really there. i talked to Him "Tuhan, ellen nggak mau sia2 dateng k sini, udah sakit pula, Tuhan yang kuatin yaa" it wasnt about how much tears i shed and the manifestation i experienced but it was all about how i feel God and i believe Him wholeheartedly that He is real. He lifted up all my burden, all of those little wanderings i kept myself. He showed me that He cares (:
and more than that, He filled my heart with love and joy! Lord, if its not from You, how can i love and care others? i might find people are dissapointing, and they never seem to understand me, but hey ellen, would you let those problems taking the joy of the Lord away from your heart?
the wintercamp is over, i got back to the reality living in melbourne cbd as i got the signal back to my mobile. reality came in. and yes, things do go wrong. but we believe that our God have a beautiful plan for our life eh?
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" - Jeremiah 29:11
You've walked with me thru the mountains,
and You were also there when i was in the valleys.
i want to keep You with me forever (:
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