sweet and lovely day with beautiful friends and weather.
im very happy for you (:
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
yesterday
i was on a taxi on my way to st albans. for one second, no, for few minutes, i was just about to cry and ask the taxi driver to send me back home. the weather was supa hot *inside e cab* and the driver drove crazily and im tired. im tired of going ard victoria, im tired getting told to ask other ppl,or walking there alone and got lost myself and i dont want to bother other ppl too much. i personally dont like taking the bus, and im not an expert in reading maps as well. yes, those are what i have been doing in e last 2 weeks. im worn out.
i know i should be calm during these times. ive tried, and it is not that easy. i reckon it is good enough for me that i dont have any breakdown so far. i even cant cry i dont know why. is it a part of me getting more mature? or i simply have lost all my tears?
okay, dont tell me that uni is not everything. i know, it is not. but i just cant screw this up at this very second. i am just doing the best i can do, not merely because i want a good result. but this is the ultimate thing that would proof what ive learnt in these past 4 years. and i dont know if you re not in the same stream with me, but i do really find a passion in whatever im doing. and im grateful for this opportunity to be able to study what i really like.
few seconds later after that crazy thoughts inside e cab, i realised; that this is also a part of my journey. and im so close already to e end. im going to pay 50 bucks for the cab, means i should get things done. and probably all these hurdles ive been going thru, God let them happen. they may need to be there for me, to change me, to shape me. and the process, is truly painful :s. again about the yoke,
it may seem that i am holding it by myself, cause i cant see God through my literal eyes. but by faith, i believe that He shares the burden with me. so i decided, keep going len, just keep going.
i finally arrived at danny's place in albans, paid 56 bucks for the cab! and then danny helped me bringing my stuff and showed me the way in. i imagined, it was just a little house with a small garage and workshop next to it. but when i followed him, it was more than that. how do i describe this.. it was like those little houses you see on story books; it has a garden at the back, with blooming flowers and pink bicycles laying around, and also a trampoline! yes. how cool is that. and to be able to go into the workshop area, there is this small walking path, between the gardens among the bushes. and tada! finally, i see the diy leather workshop!
how obscured and pretty this place is.
danny turned on the fan, opened the garage door, swich on tv and went to take a bottle of chilled apple juice. and we started to chat, what to do first, what to do next. and because, this is australia, he also talked alot about this former aspirations, his boat projects, oz govt, his childhood, first job and so on and so on..
we worked on my leather disks for 4 hours. it was almost 5, and i told myself, ellen u should go home. it is 5 oclock and ure in st albans. but the work was still on its way and when i started to contemplate with myself, i saw this little girl came down to the workshop and smiled. her name is miranda and she is 6 years old. she got black hair and beautiful brown eyes. ok, she is the one who made me stayed bit longer.
danny went to look for brush for quite a while. and i was left with miranda. we played abit building this 'upside-down' city from leather scraps and sticky tape. oh gosh, she is so sweet and smart *gw gemeeeessss*. i showed miranda how my chair is going to look like at the end and she said that the disks now looks like a ball rather than what it is going to be. then she said she wanted to help.
so, glueing was the last task of the day. danny, miranda and me were trying to do our job quick. and at 6, we wrapped things up. abo was keep calling me asking where i am, she knows st albans better than me, it was 6 and i havent even leave that place.
thank God, for the existance of kind people in this earth. danny and miranda sent me to the station so that i wouldnt need to catch a bus neither a taxi.
my whole body was in sore. it had been a tiring day, and i just sat next to a window and embracing the outside scenery, thanking God for the day that passed.
tottenham. pretty.
i arrived home at 7 and i am glad when i saw those familiar faces were waiting for me. then we started fa and praised the Lord for His goodness til today.
(:
more to come,
more to fight for.
i know i should be calm during these times. ive tried, and it is not that easy. i reckon it is good enough for me that i dont have any breakdown so far. i even cant cry i dont know why. is it a part of me getting more mature? or i simply have lost all my tears?
okay, dont tell me that uni is not everything. i know, it is not. but i just cant screw this up at this very second. i am just doing the best i can do, not merely because i want a good result. but this is the ultimate thing that would proof what ive learnt in these past 4 years. and i dont know if you re not in the same stream with me, but i do really find a passion in whatever im doing. and im grateful for this opportunity to be able to study what i really like.
few seconds later after that crazy thoughts inside e cab, i realised; that this is also a part of my journey. and im so close already to e end. im going to pay 50 bucks for the cab, means i should get things done. and probably all these hurdles ive been going thru, God let them happen. they may need to be there for me, to change me, to shape me. and the process, is truly painful :s. again about the yoke,
it may seem that i am holding it by myself, cause i cant see God through my literal eyes. but by faith, i believe that He shares the burden with me. so i decided, keep going len, just keep going.
i finally arrived at danny's place in albans, paid 56 bucks for the cab! and then danny helped me bringing my stuff and showed me the way in. i imagined, it was just a little house with a small garage and workshop next to it. but when i followed him, it was more than that. how do i describe this.. it was like those little houses you see on story books; it has a garden at the back, with blooming flowers and pink bicycles laying around, and also a trampoline! yes. how cool is that. and to be able to go into the workshop area, there is this small walking path, between the gardens among the bushes. and tada! finally, i see the diy leather workshop!
how obscured and pretty this place is.
danny turned on the fan, opened the garage door, swich on tv and went to take a bottle of chilled apple juice. and we started to chat, what to do first, what to do next. and because, this is australia, he also talked alot about this former aspirations, his boat projects, oz govt, his childhood, first job and so on and so on..
we worked on my leather disks for 4 hours. it was almost 5, and i told myself, ellen u should go home. it is 5 oclock and ure in st albans. but the work was still on its way and when i started to contemplate with myself, i saw this little girl came down to the workshop and smiled. her name is miranda and she is 6 years old. she got black hair and beautiful brown eyes. ok, she is the one who made me stayed bit longer.
danny went to look for brush for quite a while. and i was left with miranda. we played abit building this 'upside-down' city from leather scraps and sticky tape. oh gosh, she is so sweet and smart *gw gemeeeessss*. i showed miranda how my chair is going to look like at the end and she said that the disks now looks like a ball rather than what it is going to be. then she said she wanted to help.
so, glueing was the last task of the day. danny, miranda and me were trying to do our job quick. and at 6, we wrapped things up. abo was keep calling me asking where i am, she knows st albans better than me, it was 6 and i havent even leave that place.
thank God, for the existance of kind people in this earth. danny and miranda sent me to the station so that i wouldnt need to catch a bus neither a taxi.
my whole body was in sore. it had been a tiring day, and i just sat next to a window and embracing the outside scenery, thanking God for the day that passed.
tottenham. pretty.
i arrived home at 7 and i am glad when i saw those familiar faces were waiting for me. then we started fa and praised the Lord for His goodness til today.
(:
more to come,
more to fight for.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
subuh subuh
in the craziest time of the year,
i know My Father's care for me (:
things that were not meant to happen,
has its own purpose as well.
and when i see what He has plan for me,
i know it s all for my own good.
and about little sharks?
they re still there,
but i shall not worry.
i have someone to cling onto.
cause when i see Him,
i see HOPE (':
i know My Father's care for me (:
things that were not meant to happen,
has its own purpose as well.
and when i see what He has plan for me,
i know it s all for my own good.
and about little sharks?
they re still there,
but i shall not worry.
i have someone to cling onto.
cause when i see Him,
i see HOPE (':
Friday, October 15, 2010
sadar len
mari menulis dalam bahasa indonesia *jijay kalimat pembukanya*
okeh ampir jem 1, 22 hari menjelang final presentation yg juga akan menutup perjalanan gw berkelana selama 4 tahun di b 87-88, b 8, b 45 dan b b lainnya yg tidak tersebutkan. excited? yes. ngeri? yes. tugas gw belum kelar dan belum mencapai akhir. kursi gw belum berdiri dan folio gw belum kelar. panik? tentu saja sodara2, gw bukan orang yang setenang itu. gw PANIK *constantly*.
lalu?
lalu gak ada guna paniknya. otak gw semakin ketarik2 badan gw melemah, sekali nempel ranjang uda berasa kesedot di dalem ga bisa keluar lagi. mau nangis aer mata juga ga bisa keluar. ugh.
lalu?
tidur menjadi hal yg sangat mudah dilakukan dan begitu bangun, perasaan menyesal luar biasa muncul. kenapa gw tidak bertahan sedikit lebih lama buat tugas dan memutuskan untuk tidur??
dodol.
sampai di suatu pagi.. gw bangun dan melangkah dengan gontai. mengumpulkan sisa2 semangat yang ada dan mulai membuat model. tada! inspirasi muncul tidak terduga. yang lalu kemudian bisa berguna untuk final design. lalala. Tuhan makasih banget. gw tau gw harus percaya sama Tuhan, kadang gw terlalu overlook semua yang ada di depan gw. kertas2 dan model2 bodoh itu. sapi mati yang udah kejait jadi buletan sandwich. kawat2 yang bikin tangan baret semua. gw lupa liat Engkau. Engkau jauh lebih besar dari semuanya itu. My God is sovereign God, God of Love and God who fulls of wisdom. dan bener, percaya buat Tuhan di masa sulit, ngga semudah ngomongnya di masa gampang.
dan sekali lagi kamu sadar ellen, hidup ngga cuma buat uni sendiri,
and you know that (: (:
okeh sekarang gw undur diri.
bikin tugas lagi :D
okeh ampir jem 1, 22 hari menjelang final presentation yg juga akan menutup perjalanan gw berkelana selama 4 tahun di b 87-88, b 8, b 45 dan b b lainnya yg tidak tersebutkan. excited? yes. ngeri? yes. tugas gw belum kelar dan belum mencapai akhir. kursi gw belum berdiri dan folio gw belum kelar. panik? tentu saja sodara2, gw bukan orang yang setenang itu. gw PANIK *constantly*.
lalu?
lalu gak ada guna paniknya. otak gw semakin ketarik2 badan gw melemah, sekali nempel ranjang uda berasa kesedot di dalem ga bisa keluar lagi. mau nangis aer mata juga ga bisa keluar. ugh.
lalu?
tidur menjadi hal yg sangat mudah dilakukan dan begitu bangun, perasaan menyesal luar biasa muncul. kenapa gw tidak bertahan sedikit lebih lama buat tugas dan memutuskan untuk tidur??
dodol.
sampai di suatu pagi.. gw bangun dan melangkah dengan gontai. mengumpulkan sisa2 semangat yang ada dan mulai membuat model. tada! inspirasi muncul tidak terduga. yang lalu kemudian bisa berguna untuk final design. lalala. Tuhan makasih banget. gw tau gw harus percaya sama Tuhan, kadang gw terlalu overlook semua yang ada di depan gw. kertas2 dan model2 bodoh itu. sapi mati yang udah kejait jadi buletan sandwich. kawat2 yang bikin tangan baret semua. gw lupa liat Engkau. Engkau jauh lebih besar dari semuanya itu. My God is sovereign God, God of Love and God who fulls of wisdom. dan bener, percaya buat Tuhan di masa sulit, ngga semudah ngomongnya di masa gampang.
dan sekali lagi kamu sadar ellen, hidup ngga cuma buat uni sendiri,
and you know that (: (:
okeh sekarang gw undur diri.
bikin tugas lagi :D
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
tuesday
when it is so hard to believe anyone else, i know i can always put my trust in You.
1 John 3:20-21
thank you, maslan! hehehe
thank you, God (:
1 John 3:20-21
thank you, maslan! hehehe
thank you, God (:
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
a new thing!
check this out.
im looking forward to contribute in making this place pretty.
oh how exciting! :D
err, major project s been abandoned :s
im looking forward to contribute in making this place pretty.
oh how exciting! :D
err, major project s been abandoned :s
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