happy birthday pop!

love love love you MUCH! <3

hmmm

"While we look not a that things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal".
[2 Corinthians 4:18]

the scientist

my coldplay night. lol.

buntut2nya ya gini ini..

1am

i cant give You up.

You love me too much.

"life is about a choice"


its what ppl always say. there are consequences for things you do or you dont do. the world is watching over us for every single matter we do. and people judge, so do we. even when you dont say it out. thats when we started to fill up ppl's expectation by doing smth that is not ours.

what happen then if we live our life by our own way? our manners? our self expectations?

selfish much?


i have those things in my mind lately and been struggling alot by myself finding the answer. but then, it came to a simple conclusion:
"my life is no longer mine, but its also His.
its Him who live in me,
so id better live in His way which is the best for me,
and for others too"

name

ellen grace = anugerah cewe cantik yang bersinar2

*WOW*
keberatan nama saya......................


mari kita belajar macrame aja..

ngeluh

ga bisa konsen
sudah waktunya bikin tugas
kenapa libur cepet banget habis :(



*wake up len*

where are you

some love to share <3

i spent my whole afternoon sleeping today. my head was heavy. my nose didnt function properly. my throat felt so dried. and my eyes got watery very often.

okay. im sick.


despite of all of those things, in my time of solitude, i began to think about how we should live fully. i mean, hey, our Lord, Jesus Christ has paid the price for us, so we could get a new life, so why should we stay the same? i had a weird dream last night, i thought it was the time for His second coming. but, i cant remember it clearly. i woke up, opened my eyes, and i said to myself 'gosh, im still alive'. i dont know if im ready to face the end of the world. sounds abit scary eh?

so i came up to a conclusion, since i dont know until when i could live, or when the end of the world is, i just want to learn how to live faithfully in Christ. it isnt going to be easy. but its all about our choices. i cant imagine how my life would be if i never know Jesus in my life. i could be a cynical, very mean, 'berandal' little creature that you might want to 'incek2'.. *i have tendency for those things hahaha* i dont say that my life now is perfect tho. im still very dissapointing. i failed people for many many times. and especially to God as well, i hurt His heart much. but then, thank you again thank you for the cross, Lord. Youve died and rose again for us! and also to be mentioned, to those beautiful people i met in life, dear friends and family whom i always keep them close in heart.


love love for you all! (:
happy pass-over!

sick and happy

cuaca mendung, makan bubur ayam, flu = pas

ternyata gw jadi semakin sakit sejak kemaren, dimulai dengan makan mcd subuh2 d crown sehabis sebelumnya cuma tidur 3 jam, dan duduk d rumput kelamaan hari kamis. dohh len, tobat la..


tapi entah tetep senang dari kemaren (:



oh and again
happy birthday winishe!

%&%#&#%@

unsolved problems?

hang in there.
God is able (:

:)

there are too many things to be thanked for.

24/02/06

it was my first day in fa back then. i still remember that afternoon. it was in jess' place. those two cute cups? i got it from andy the day i first met him, he just had holiday in south korea, and he brought back some souvenirs. very nice lehh baru kenal uda dikasi oleh2.. hahaha..

okay, thats not my point. bwek.

i am thankful. i am thankful that my sis brought me to fa that day. i came with no expectation at all, yet to see myself here again that im still going every friday, im amazed. i dont know how this could happen to me, but im sure its just the way God works. veeeery mysterious and unique ;) well, to be honest, why was i going? i got nothing to do in friday night since i was a nubie in melbourne, not much friends, not much things to do. it was all fun to meet them. so i continually come everyweek.

it was all routine activity i thought. there were some certain occasion that made me unable to attend fa on time. i tried to leave my other things early. i dont know why. i still came even it was already 8. maybe i would feel lonely if i went home and not seeing my sister there, well during weekend at least you can do fun stuffs eh? alone? its not good at all.

until then i realised, that i got something from fa. not only new friends, but also learn what life is about from others, great great touching testimonies that shared humbly and honest, and the most important things: family and my acknowledgement in God. i started to learn more things: my faith is strengthen and built, my heart desires more to love and to care, for God and for my 'family.' the term 'family' itself defines different things, it can be my family by blood back there in
indo, but it also means its where God placed you. you meant to be there. you meant to be the part of that family. you meant to accept and love others just the way they are. and honestly, for me, it was not easy.

it does take time for me to value this little 'family' i have here. i found fa sometimes pretty boring, i fell asleep during prayer, had my mind in somewhere else during sharing, and was only excited during dinner time. bah. but, something in my heart kept telling me to come. afterwards i started to focus more in every fa. listen more, share more. and thank God, people there is very supportful and caring :') sometimes i kind of know that they are weary as well, but i didnt get it why they were still coming. i kept that in mind. so even when im tired, i came. i slept in fa several times: once i slept when we were praying and still sleeping after they finished, so they asked me to sleep in sofa instead and just being a sleeping presence in there. i slept during the sharing, i couldnt even read bible cause the texts are too small so they, once again dragged me to the sofa to sleep and woke me up with a bowl of mapo tofu and rice. i also slept on the carpet when they have 'fa gabungan' with other fa, and i didnt care because i was too tired. silly.

but God cares (:

He revealed many things to me. His greatness, His love, His providence. so, yes, i fell in love with where i am now. i believed that God has made a plan for me to stay in this fa and to know Him more through this little fellowship. i dont say that i got the perfect fa ever, no, were not. but its the perfect place God has provided me to be a part of it. and i know that i grow so much thru it. ive been really blessed (:

so, now, if you asked me, do you want to give up your friday night for other things?
i dont want. no. i dont. three four people, doesnt matter, i want to be fruitful for God through here. i love you all guys! mwah mwah! (: