it was my first day in fa back then. i still remember that afternoon. it was in jess' place. those two cute cups? i got it from andy the day i first met him, he just had holiday in south korea, and he brought back some souvenirs. very nice lehh baru kenal uda dikasi oleh2.. hahaha..
okay, thats not my point. bwek.
i am thankful. i am thankful that my sis brought me to fa that day. i came with no expectation at all, yet to see myself here again that im still going every friday, im amazed. i dont know how this could happen to me, but im sure its just the way God works. veeeery mysterious and unique ;) well, to be honest, why was i going? i got nothing to do in friday night since i was a nubie in melbourne, not much friends, not much things to do. it was all fun to meet them. so i continually come everyweek.
it was all routine activity i thought. there were some certain occasion that made me unable to attend fa on time. i tried to leave my other things early. i dont know why. i still came even it was already 8. maybe i would feel lonely if i went home and not seeing my sister there, well during weekend at least you can do fun stuffs eh? alone? its not good at all.
until then i realised, that i got something from fa. not only new friends, but also learn what life is about from others, great great touching testimonies that shared humbly and honest, and the most important things: family and my acknowledgement in God. i started to learn more things: my faith is strengthen and built, my heart desires more to love and to care, for God and for my 'family.' the term 'family' itself defines different things, it can be my family by blood back there in
indo, but it also means its where God placed you. you meant to be there. you meant to be the part of that family. you meant to accept and love others just the way they are. and honestly, for me, it was not easy.
it does take time for me to value this little 'family' i have here. i found fa sometimes pretty boring, i fell asleep during prayer, had my mind in somewhere else during sharing, and was only excited during dinner time. bah. but, something in my heart kept telling me to come. afterwards i started to focus more in every fa. listen more, share more. and thank God, people there is very supportful and caring :') sometimes i kind of know that they are weary as well, but i didnt get it why they were still coming. i kept that in mind. so even when im tired, i came. i slept in fa several times: once i slept when we were praying and still sleeping after they finished, so they asked me to sleep in sofa instead and just being a sleeping presence in there. i slept during the sharing, i couldnt even read bible cause the texts are too small so they, once again dragged me to the sofa to sleep and woke me up with a bowl of mapo tofu and rice. i also slept on the carpet when they have 'fa gabungan' with other fa, and i didnt care because i was too tired. silly.
but God cares (:
He revealed many things to me. His greatness, His love, His providence. so, yes, i fell in love with where i am now. i believed that God has made a plan for me to stay in this fa and to know Him more through this little fellowship. i dont say that i got the perfect fa ever, no, were not. but its the perfect place God has provided me to be a part of it. and i know that i grow so much thru it. ive been really blessed (:
so, now, if you asked me, do you want to give up your friday night for other things?
i dont want. no. i dont. three four people, doesnt matter, i want to be fruitful for God through here. i love you all guys! mwah mwah! (:
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