too cute to be true

arghhhhh lucunyaaaaa!!!!!!!!!
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11:47

saya ngaaaantoookk

dan masih online.


ill do a brief note for myself here. cuman kepikir aja tadi omongan papa waktu makan malem. memang tiap orang itu beda2 dan nggak sempurna. cuman ya emang itulah hidup. kita ngga bole ngerasa lebih baek daripada orang laen soalnya tiap orang punya cara beda dalem ngeliat sesuatu. dan klo taktambahin sendiri, artinya itu kita ngga boleh iri sama orang laen.

everyone deserves happiness.

rooftop

ada apa d atap rumahmu?




tau begini engga perlu ke rooftop jauh2, cukup d rumah sendiri, nyaaaa~


btw happy cny!

i just deleted an entire page of my writing.


see, im doing it again.
crap.

im trully my mum's daughter.

dont talk much so u wont get much trouble.

i do this all the time: i write a very long posting here, then i delete it before i save it.
because sometimes i think its too unnecessary or rude.
this is weird.



excuse my habit pls.
im a mystery.

hidup sehat

terlalu banyak postings bernuansa sentimentil akhir2 ini, saatnya ganti situasi.


besok jogging ato sepedaan ya?

gila gw seriously harus olahraga dan makan banyakan!

im staying at home

this summer is a superb family holiday for me! well, i like to do a list!
i thank God that:
- my dad spends most of his time working at home so i can always have lunch and dinner together
- my mum is reeeeally organised and 'tidak cerewet' :p
- my bro is growing up
- my sister got a casual job
- my dog is reaaally clever and sweeet
- my friends are so funny

that simple? yes! im happy and content (:
i dont want to take them all for granted, i do want to appreciate every single second i have with them. love what you got, not what others have.


rumput tetangga kadang keliatan lebih ijo, tapi gimana2 tetep enakan di rumah sendiriiii~~

the art of letting go

i even ever thought that id be better if you hurt me more so i can forget you.

ive been taking myself back and led my self into a self-pity-ness which i hate to do. but i guess i just have to let it go all now. such an interesting life yet im sure someday ill understand the meaning of all of these. ive tried and i dont think itll work, so i stop now. wish you a wonderful life ahead, dear friend.

thank you God for pulling me up!


and this sweet fruit pie for the loved ones! (:

devon

God, take me to walk in Your paths.
Bring me still and brave,
to face every moments in life.
Good times, hard times.
I want to surrender all to You.
Do not ever let me go.

bosen

1. hal apa yang kamu alami hari ini?

** keliling kota banjir2~ seru!

2. hal terakhir yang kamu lakukan?

** nonton

3. kebaikan apa yang kamu lakuin hari ini?

** merelakan pukis meses dimakan adek

4. kejahatan apa yang kamu lakukan hari ini?

** menyuruh papa memakan pukis pandan punya adek

5. sms trkhr dr sapa?

** ngga tau

6. tel dr sapa terakhir?

** adek

7. hal yang paling kamu takuti?

** i dono

8. keinginan kamu saat ultah mu?

** jadi orang lebih baek

9. ambisi mu saat ini?

** design kaos banyak2

10. Novel terakhir yang kamu baca?

** i dont read novels

11. temen kuliah yang terakhir kamu temui?

** errr.. uda lama bgt

12. kesenangan yg kamu gandrungi saat ini?

** nonton dvd bajakan banyak2!

13. keinginan mu saat ini?

** jadi anak yang baik dan berbakti~

14. cuaca ditempat mu?

** pagi panas sore hujan badai

15. makanan terakhir yg kamu makan?

** nasi goreng jawaa

16. ada berapa sms di inbox mu saat ini?

** tauk de

17. apa makna 2009 bg km?

** another year to live

18. pujian terakhir yg kamu dapat?

** errr tumben kamar mandinya uda lumayan bersih!

19. drama percintaan kamu gmn?

** hambar

20. isi dompet saat ini?

** oke la

21. makanan apa yg ada dipikiranmu saat ini?

** pukis

22. teman sekamar mu sapa?

** ga ada

23. kerjaan apa yg ingin kamu kerjakan saat ini?

** competition entries huh

24. pelajaran apa terakhir yang kamu pelajari?

** gimana cara bikin film buat screen printing

25. binatang yang pling kamu takuti?

** kodok!

i told myself "be patient", life is never been easy but im glad that im living it. i tried once, i failed. i tried again, i did failed again but ill keep myself trying. i want to believe. someday, in some fine days, ill said "Thank God, i went through it. Thank you God" (:

jangan dibaca deh

kenapa ngeblog?
kenapa bahas ini lagi?

masalahnya saya nggak tau sapa2 aja yang sebenernya kengangguran banget baca tulisan2 gak jelas saya d sini. apalagi saya gak publikasi ini blog ke umum, dengan maksud saya bisa ngomel2 sepuasnya d sini klo bete tanpa orang tau dan sedikit intensi buat jadi sok misterius *amit2* kemungkinan pertama orang baca blog ini adalah orang nganggur yang iseng2, kedua stalker2 rahasia yang sok2 ngga baca padahal mo ngorek2 info saya *geerrrr* ketiga yang paling mungkin ya si kakak yang klo ada inet selalu ngecekin blog saya tiap hari.

ada beberapa alasan tapi buat saya sendiri bikin blog ini tetep eksis.
1. alasan murni pertama adalah teman d kala bosen. beneran kadang klo bosen emang enaknya ya ngomel2 sama komputer gini. apalagi klo temen2 d msn pada gak online maupun gak telpon berhubung saya sekarang adalah putri keong.
2. buat organisir apa2 aja yang terjadi d hidup yang kadang gw sendiri bisa kelupaan dan tentunya buat ngingetin saya atas kesalahan2 bodoh yang gak seharusnya diulangi dalem hidup. dan bisa juga jadi bacaan ringan untuk taun2 ke depannya.
3. buat ngepost gambar2 ato foto2 karya sendiri. kasian saya, narsis. swt.
4. belajar menulis tentunya. soalnya ternyata emang saya gak bisa lari dr yang namanya tulis menulis karena walopun sekolah uda g masuk jurusan sastra saya tetep dituntut untuk bikin report, essay dan kawan2 setianya lainnya dengan baik. sigh.
5. dan ini yang rada sok emo adalah untuk menuliskan curahan hati secara ambigu biar yang ngerti gw doankk hahahaha. antisipasi buat para pembaca yang kepo2.

nulis apaan sih gw?
gak jelas kan?
terus situ kok masih bacaaaaa?

ellen sampe kapan kamu mau begini terus2annnnnnn....

bangkit! merdeka!

a little reflection

i spent my dinner talking about future with my dad. he asked me what i would do to my life years ahead. then it brought us to the following discussion about talent. i believe that everyone has gifted with different talents. and the giver is the one and only our dear God. no one can boast himself for his talent because it is not only his. i believe that God doesnt want us to be lazy. we are gifted to give. we need to develop our ability or skill *or whatever u call the talent is* to live. as written also in the Bible, in matthew 25 verse 14-30, God wants us to develop our talents and we should do work on it. He gives us different ones based on our capability, He wont give us something that we cannot cope. so theres no need to be jealous with others'.

i thank God for whatever things He has given me. i am no one without Him. and i shall not boast anything before Him, cause its not solely mine.

btw i had some great time with my highschool mates today. its been great to see them. and im proud of all of you guys. i know that this is the time youre working on your dreams. you all have changed, in a better way, i believe. and please be my friends always, id love to see you achieving what youve been dreaming on in your own different ways.

thank God i have you all in my life (:

i have to admit that i feel deadly bored here. sigh.

i wake up between 9-11 almost everyday, stay at home the whole day and need to accept the fact that i can go nowhere since my driving skill is still very doubtful. night is the better time, when my parents could still bring me somewhere ard to have dinner. but, it doesnt happen everyday.

okay, so here ellen, be grateful. please, be. i tried to kill time by doing something useful, but it doesnt always work. i dont like cooking as much as my mum does nor playing game like my brother, nor catching 'cicak' and sunbathing like my dog. so, i draw alot. its not always succesful tho, even i spend quite some time for drawing, i could end up with nothing. its actually in line with the project my dad gave me, to do some t shirt designs for the shop. its a struggle to create smth from scracth for sure.

thanks to richard who took me out to do some exercise: badminton. eventho my arms are still abit stiff now. at least i did smth. and dont ask me about my new year's eve. i stayed at home watching harry potter in tv.

i think im kinda lost now. yet maybe there's one lesson i can learn from all of this. since, im bored. i spend more time reading my bible. i dont know why but i just kinda sick of all magazines or newspapers or tv's infotainment programs, so i think id better spend my time to understand God's words more. i still believe Your plan is true, Lord.

and oh btw, i made this notes while i was in car with my mum this afternoon. maybe this could cure my boredom-sickness. wisata kuliner surabaya:
- bebek karang empat
- pukis
- ayam goreng tamasya
- nasi goreng jawa
- bebek goreng leonita
- ayam goreng bu hartono
- bandeng goreng
- encek
- bistik babi
- angus
- aroma
- kangkung terasi + tempe
- udang rebus
- aroma
- nasi goreng ikan asin
- soto imam bonjol
- tim telur polos minyak babi
- kfc

accomplished missions:
- bu kris
- bakwan kapasari
- ikan bakar sukang + otak2 bakar
- oriana
- pak djo + es campurnya
- top noodle
- ayam goreng kuah kecap
- ikan tim
- soto mama
- rawon

im off now. bored! hahah