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MAKASI Tuhan,
makasi ayah dan ibu,
makasi kakak dan adik,
makasi mika,
makasi teman2 semuaaa :D
Monday, November 29, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
and yes i have to change
time indeed flies.
have you ever question yourself; why i (still) seem to be the person i was years ago? why am i (still) doing the same mistakes i did years ago? why the same cycle of my life is (still) going on? or even, why am i becoming worse person than before?
have you?
i (still) do.
answering those questions isnt easy. there are times when even i cant handle myself well. or times when i think i am insane being O.O
lucky me, God again has spoken their words to me that His grace is more than just forgiving, it does empower me too. i have ever read all the verses mentioned during the sermon last sunday, but they never be revealed to me in such a way. i know that God gives me abundance in love and blessings, i know that His grace is enough to forgive my sin no matter how big it is, i also know that i need to fulfill a purpose God has prepared for me. but, God knows that i cant do these all alone too! :s
God's grace empowers me.
there is so much more in being a Christian. even after i accept Jesus as my Savior, been baptised, done som, do ministry at church; i still sin, and day by day it is getting much more T.T
God wants me to grow.
He would not let me staying as an 'old' me. He wants me to win over my bad habits, my sinful thoughts, my evil heart. i need to fight myself. no, not with my own power. but, i have to do my part. empower doesnt mean that it happens automatically, it means, it helps you, supports you, gives you more power to overcome things. i will still need to drag myself from my lovely bed + doona to pray, i will need to keep my eyes open to read the bible and ponder the words, i will still need to keep my mouth shut from saying anything bad about others *complain less!*, i will still need to use my time more wisely doing good things rather than sleeping and slacking. and so on and so on.
to talk about the finish line? i cant answer, i dont know. i cant fix my imperfections by myself..
but He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness'. therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. -- 2 cor 12:9
keep looking at the Cross (':
have you ever question yourself; why i (still) seem to be the person i was years ago? why am i (still) doing the same mistakes i did years ago? why the same cycle of my life is (still) going on? or even, why am i becoming worse person than before?
have you?
i (still) do.
answering those questions isnt easy. there are times when even i cant handle myself well. or times when i think i am insane being O.O
lucky me, God again has spoken their words to me that His grace is more than just forgiving, it does empower me too. i have ever read all the verses mentioned during the sermon last sunday, but they never be revealed to me in such a way. i know that God gives me abundance in love and blessings, i know that His grace is enough to forgive my sin no matter how big it is, i also know that i need to fulfill a purpose God has prepared for me. but, God knows that i cant do these all alone too! :s
God's grace empowers me.
there is so much more in being a Christian. even after i accept Jesus as my Savior, been baptised, done som, do ministry at church; i still sin, and day by day it is getting much more T.T
God wants me to grow.
He would not let me staying as an 'old' me. He wants me to win over my bad habits, my sinful thoughts, my evil heart. i need to fight myself. no, not with my own power. but, i have to do my part. empower doesnt mean that it happens automatically, it means, it helps you, supports you, gives you more power to overcome things. i will still need to drag myself from my lovely bed + doona to pray, i will need to keep my eyes open to read the bible and ponder the words, i will still need to keep my mouth shut from saying anything bad about others *complain less!*, i will still need to use my time more wisely doing good things rather than sleeping and slacking. and so on and so on.
to talk about the finish line? i cant answer, i dont know. i cant fix my imperfections by myself..
but He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness'. therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. -- 2 cor 12:9
keep looking at the Cross (':
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
baking again! :3
cetakan bunny dr stipen
cetakan benu dr niniee
current obsession: taste.com.au
*omnomnomnomnom*
ps. jess, i can bake sm cookies like these tar pas housewarming lu. in christmas-y theme juga bole hohohoho :D
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
uncertainty
who loves uncertainty? i dont.
i hate when the tram sign didnt tell me how many more minutes i had to wait, i get annoyed the manufacturer couldnt make sure when they actually gonna do my job, even when i dont know what to do tomorrow.
well, sounds too trivial?
okay, more serious matter. i dont know whether i could find a job here at least for this summer. i dont know whether i would ever be able to support myself financially, whether i could ever make them happy. would i ever be a good mum? *okay, too far*
i am bloody thinker. i think, a lot. been told not to do so for many times; myself, family, friends even God. yet i am still failing.
who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? -- matt 6:27
if i worry today, would it make me happier tomorrow?
if i worry today, would it prevent something bad to happen tomorrow?
if i worry today, would it change anything?
NO.
thus, i choose to be happy instead.
embrace the good and the bad in their own times.
and surrender everything to Him and keep doing my best :')
ecclesiastes 3!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
done.
its november already. and BIG NEWS is: i am DONE with uni. yes! finally! :D
4-years is a long time, trust me. eventho i never had any exam during that period of time, the projects were enough to 'almost-kill' me in many ways. at the end of every semester i always felt that i was shrinking -- in terms of my weight, my brain and my will to overcome whatever left to be done. im so glad that ive made it thru :')
and now what??
yes. such a question. i promise myself ill take a week off and rest myself for a bit, but i cant help to think abt it. im not used of doing nothing. hence, i do cleaning. yay! i love having a quiet time ironing, doing laundry, washing dishes. i know who s the happiest tho, BABI. she loves me more during holiday, cause ill do the house work often.
okay, again to look back what happened through this yr. i feel truly grateful.
even until the last days before final, when i still could not see the end of the tunnel. i saw hope. i saw promise. i was having trouble towards the end of this semester, finding a metal fabricator who can do the job for me. it was three weeks before the final i got my structure idea resolved *i even was not sure with the design of it* i consulted with more lecturers, called my dad, discussed it with sm of my nerdy-engineer fellows and asked God: 'what should i do???' i was so desperate :( i took trams, trains, busses *got lost* and asked for lifts *didnt get lost* for so many times until one point i thought when is this going to end?? well, it ended now hehe. so, i got my metal frame on the day of submission, submitted the book, slides, and photos 5 mins before the due time, and did the presentation the next morning.
here i am. done.
i feel relieved.
mentioning it again. i cant truly pass all of this things without Him, yes God, You. You are the one who stays with me all the time, You are the one who sent me all of those beautiful people to help around, You are the one who let me through this all.
thank you once again.
THANK YOU (: (:
4-years is a long time, trust me. eventho i never had any exam during that period of time, the projects were enough to 'almost-kill' me in many ways. at the end of every semester i always felt that i was shrinking -- in terms of my weight, my brain and my will to overcome whatever left to be done. im so glad that ive made it thru :')
and now what??
yes. such a question. i promise myself ill take a week off and rest myself for a bit, but i cant help to think abt it. im not used of doing nothing. hence, i do cleaning. yay! i love having a quiet time ironing, doing laundry, washing dishes. i know who s the happiest tho, BABI. she loves me more during holiday, cause ill do the house work often.
okay, again to look back what happened through this yr. i feel truly grateful.
even until the last days before final, when i still could not see the end of the tunnel. i saw hope. i saw promise. i was having trouble towards the end of this semester, finding a metal fabricator who can do the job for me. it was three weeks before the final i got my structure idea resolved *i even was not sure with the design of it* i consulted with more lecturers, called my dad, discussed it with sm of my nerdy-engineer fellows and asked God: 'what should i do???' i was so desperate :( i took trams, trains, busses *got lost* and asked for lifts *didnt get lost* for so many times until one point i thought when is this going to end?? well, it ended now hehe. so, i got my metal frame on the day of submission, submitted the book, slides, and photos 5 mins before the due time, and did the presentation the next morning.
here i am. done.
i feel relieved.
mentioning it again. i cant truly pass all of this things without Him, yes God, You. You are the one who stays with me all the time, You are the one who sent me all of those beautiful people to help around, You are the one who let me through this all.
thank you once again.
THANK YOU (: (:
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